My heart aches. I haven't felt this particular sensation in a long time. Waves of melancholy and like every single molecule of my skin is on alert and so many deep sighs. I am missing someone. Many people, actually, which might be why it's so bad.
My muse has moved across the country and the connection we share is stretched taut and I am acutely aware of which direction is east. We are not lovers. We are friends....but more? Our energies resonate, if you will. I don't really know how to describe it adequately. He moved away years ago, and while I missed his presence, it was not a big deal. I don't mind people leaving as long as I can still keep track of them, if that makes sense. I long ago gave up on the longing for company that cannot be there and have been happy for it. But it does make one feel.....more alive. And I have always been a fan of a good melancholy.
His change in distance has made me acutely aware of the people that I want to see right now and can't, for whatever reasons. And it makes me even more excited for next year's burning Man. Because he will be there. As will many others that I haven't seen in far too long. It is a gathering of friends, a resolution to the longing. As if I needed another reason, I have several now. The universe knows whats up. =)
So here is to change and distance and the anticipation of meeting with good friends again!
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